Monday, July 30, 2012

mountains in my rearview mirror...



Yesterday was not fun – it was the closing of a very significant chapter in my life.  I shipped my last 15 boxes, gave the landlord my key, took one last look around my empty room, and headed north to the Denver airport – away from Colorado Springs. 

Four of us made the journey (Amber, Ellie, Janae and myself) I found it hard to speak, and wanted to throw up the entire ride.  It was starting to sink in that I was really leaving for good.   As much as I love and will miss Colorado, it’s the people I left behind that made my heart feel like someone had reached in and started squeezing as hard as they could.  Never in my life have I known such TRUE and WONDERFUL friends, or had such incredible Christian community – it was definitely something special.  As tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably, the three of them each prayed for me in the car on the drive up.  At the airport we hugged, cried, said goodbye, cried some more, hugged some more, and finally had to go our separate ways. 

A few hours later, I stepped off the plane in New Orleans.  That’s when it hit me – I was back, and not just to visit.  My mind was going a million miles per hour and my churning stomach was trying to keep up.  My sweet mom was there to pick me up and we headed back to Petal. 

It was a surreal feeling, knowing that my time in Colorado was over.  But even through the tears, goodbyes, aching heart, and upset stomach – I had peace that it was the right decision.  I knew that I was supposed to be back in Mississippi. 

So here I am…back in the deep, deep south!  It’s funny, multiple times I’ve tearfully left Petal behind to start a new journey, not knowing if or when I would return.  But the Lord has brought me back and is ready to begin this new season.  It’s so exciting to know that your life is in front of you and the possibilities are endless.  All weekend I’ve been singing the song that inspired the title of this blog – the theme song from Saved by the Bell College Years!  The lyrics...

I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow
And it's all up to me how far I go
I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow

I've never seen such a view before
A new world before my eyes
So much for me to explore
It's where my future lies

today I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow
From here the future looks bright for me
And it's all up to me how far I go
It's my time to break away
I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow
Today.



1 comment:

  1. ugg, cried while reading this. i miss you. i can't believe this season is ending for both of us, and we're starting new ones in places we weren't sure we'd ever get back to. i love you.

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